Some Pig

We have a pig child named Tony. He is pretty incredible. God knew we’d need preparation for a pig, so he blessed us with three dogs before Tony. Tony is an adventure – every day – and he is the culmination of all of our past three dogs. Our Morkie, Cici, needed constant attention andContinue reading “Some Pig”

Colors of Life

When I sit at my desk each day, I see a room full of colorful characters. They all have their own individual flare that adds spice and beauty to life. Colorful characters are everywhere. As I walked the neighborhood this afternoon, I observed a rich fall palette full of golds, oranges, reds, and purples. SomeContinue reading “Colors of Life”

Contemplating Marriage

In July 2010, somewhere around the fourth of July, Matt & I made our “in a relationship” status official. In a few weeks, we’ll celebrate our nine-year wedding anniversary. Thirteen years together is a fairly long marriage these days, and I’m proud of our marriage. To say every day is easy would be a lie.Continue reading “Contemplating Marriage”

Persistent Love & a Pig

The experts say to write a little every day. They say it doesn’t need to be polished or perfect – just honest and authentic. So, here we are today trying to recover a broken habit. Not polished. Not perfect. Just writing what flows through the fingers and across the keyboard. My home is quiet. NoContinue reading “Persistent Love & a Pig”

Wait

It’s the photo of my three year old nephew, who barely escaped death as a newborn, wearing the light blue flannel of my departed brother’s childhood.  It’s another young and innocent nephew talking to his parents about his Papa Charles in heaven and asking, “but did he drive dere?” It’s the bright yellow of theContinue reading “Wait”

Trail of Light

We sat in a crowded church on an uncrowded pew on Christmas Eve. The crowd triggered my anxiety but having a pew mostly to ourselves comforted me. At the end of the service, the pastor pointed out a small privilege we take for granted in this modern world – automatic street lights. As the sunContinue reading “Trail of Light”

Be Gentle

I’m in the trenches over here trying to learn about self-compassion and how to ask for what I need. Having a conversation about things I need from others for my own emotional well-being takes my body to panic attack levels because past life experiences programmed me to believe my emotional needs make me weak. Unlearning is difficult.

This season is teaching me a little bit about gentle self-love and compassion.